“They Say I’m Doing Well” Blog Tour – Stop #14 – Claire C Riley

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Never give up.

They say I’m doing fine,

And I should be,

But I’m not.

I’m sinking in a sea of desperation, my life raft bobbing further and further from my reach.

The black waves splash my face,

They choke my lungs, and burn my eyes.

Drowning…

I’m drowning in sadness.

Inexplicable melancholy for reasons unknown.

They say I’m doing fine,

And I should be,

But I’m not.

I put a pretty smile on it,

Sing the sweet melodic, self-sacrificing rhymes they love to hear,

And pretend that it’s all okay.

But inside I’m still drowning.

They say I’m doing fine,

And I should be,

But I’m not.

It hurts.

Like a knife.

Or a cut.

Or a scrape of the knee.

A splinter to the thumb.

It hurts in the most physical sense,

But it’s all inside my head,

And I can’t make it stop!

They say I’m doing fine,

And I should be,

But I’m not.

But I’m trying…

But I’m wanting…

But I’m fighting

But I’m losing…

But I’m trying…

But it’s winning…

But I’m refusing to give up to the demons inside my head,

To the devil inside my eyes that pours the tears down my face.

They say I’m doing fine,

And I should be,

But I’m not.

But I will be.

I gasp,

I breathe,

Cold water on my skin.

Gasp, breathe, cold.

My chest aches,

Burning, throbbing, aching,

One, two, three…

Don’t give up.

They say I’m doing fine,

And I should be,

And I will be.

I’m floating in a sea of desperation,

Reaching for my life raft,

Wiping the black abyss from my eyes,

Coughing up the waves of my sadness.

Floating.

Floating.

Floating.

I’ll reach dry land and pull myself free,

I will.

I’ll do it.

They say I’m doing fine,

And I should be.

And I will be.

But it’s okay not to be.

It’s okay to be sad.

It’s okay to admit it.

It’s okay to cry.

It’s okay…

It’s okay…

It is okay.

© Claire C. Riley 2016

 author bio

Claire C Riley is a USA Today Bestselling author as well as a #1 Bestselling British Horror Author. Her works include: Odium The Dead Saga Series, Odium 0.5 Novella Series, Limerence (The Obsession Series) Twisted Magic Series, Thicker Than Blood Series and Shut Up & Kiss Me. She writes dark twisty words, is a lover of epic romances, and an eater of cake!She writes characters that are realistic and kills them without mercy. She lives in the UK with her three young daughters, husband, and scruffy dog.

https://www.facebook.com/ClaireCRileyAuthor

www.clairecriley.com

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Thank you so much for taking part Claire!

To see the full list of authors taking part in this month-long blog tour, [click here]

To find out what “They Say I’m Doing Well” is all about, [click here]

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